diary
october 12 ♡ time: 1:49 AM ♡ mood: chill
listening to: old nick - haunted broom
so guess who's finally back home in her comfy bed, as god intended????!?!?
yeah, the hurricane is FINALLY over and thankfully there was next to no damage done to my house!!! the power and wifi also returned quickly which means i can finally catch up on my schoolwork!!! i'm honestly so happy we were practically unaffected by this hurricane, because i've been hearing from my mom that my one of my aunties, who lives in tampa, had her ENTIRE house flooded. i really hope she was able to get to a safe place that wasn't, you know, FLOODED.
anyways so today i ended up sleeping like a baby for the entire morning, since i had an ACTUAL bed to sleep in, and not in the world's most uncomfortable couch, where i would only get like 1-2 hours of sleep at most, and wake up with pain in my neck. one of the things i learned during this hurricane is that my uncle's couch is only good for sitting, and not sleeping on. after i woke up my mom made egg sandwiches with mango milkshake for dinner and it was SO DELICIOUS. i love mango milkshakes so much, you have NO IDEA. they are literally in my top 5 milkshake flavors.
then i ended up watching a couple of movies with my mom and grandma. i ended up sleeping through the first one, and i'm pretty sure my mom did the same, because i had to wake her up after the movie ended. i put on another movie, and she ALSO slept through that one too. either the movies i put for her were painfully boring or my mom had an incredibly hard day at work (most likely, since it's only been a couple of days after a LITERAL hurricane passed by our area)
and now i'm snuggled up in my bed, typing this up! i'll probably stay up until 7-8 am again and sleep until 4pm (like ALWAYS)
october 7 ♡ time: 8:25 PM ♡ mood: worried
listening to: hexenmeister - tänzelsession um mitternacht
what a day today has been! /neg
remember the tropical storm i mentioned in last entry a couple of days ago?? well it has now strengthened, and by A LOT. it's now a category 5 hurricane! because of that, we ended up having to pick up and relocate to our uncle's house, since they live further away from the ocean. i heard it was gonna end up making landfall as a category 3 hurricane, but i'm still scared. i hope there isn't significant damage to my house when we get back. this hurricane had me checking the fucking whether map every hour or so.
not only that, but i also had to get up early today to help my mom move all the lawn decor (or at least the ones that could be used as a dangerous projectile) inside. and by "help" i mean i did like 99% of the work because when my mom started she started feeling fatigued and had to rest for a bit. thankfully there wasn't much to move inside tho.
and then people wonder why i'm so worried about climate change! this! this is why! what's even more infuriating is seeing dumbfucks online say that hurricanes helene and milton (with the latter being the one we're awaiting currently) was manipulated by the government. NO THE FUCK IT ISN'T!!! it's climate change, did you guys even listen during science class? or were you sleeping through it the entire time?
anyways, at least i'm not in the comfort of my uncle's couch, typing this out while listening to some funky ass keller synth. now all i have to do is wait for this hurricane to pass. like i said before, it's currently at a category 5, but will make landfall in florida as a category 3. i don't know how to close diary entries tbh. BYE!!!!1!!
october 5 ♡ time: 7:19 PM ♡ mood: slightly stressed
listening to: depressive silence - depressive silence ii (full album)
life sucks and everything is on fire!!! just kidding, but things aren't looking too good right now. first of all, my mom is sick and may possibly have covid, AGAIN. second of all, there's a tropical storm / hurricane, and this time it's coming straight towards my location. as if we didn't almost get ass fucked by helene! and even worse, it's estimated that this hurricane is gonna turn out to be a category 3. how fucking lovely!
so, what do i do to cope with this series of unfortunate events? why, i listen to copious amounts of dungeon synth and write on here! duh, everyone knows that. currently i've been getting into this one dungeon synth project called depressive silence, and OH BOY.
OH FUCKING BOY.
it's so fucking beautiful i can't even 😭 since it's super rainy and cloudy outside, it's practically the perfect atmosphere to listen to dungeon synth right now. this kind of music makes me feel like i'm a medieval princess hidden away in her tower deep in the forest. except instead of being a medieval princess, i'm a depressed and stressed out college student hidden away in her room, instead of some cool ass tower. many such cases!
anyways, now it's time for me to ponder what i should make for dinner, since my mom is practically bedridden at this point. i was considering making pasta today, but my mom said i should make something simple. so i'll probably make some scrambled eggs if that's the case. i'll also get to working on other parts of this site too. bYEEEE!!!!!1!
october 4 ♡ time: 8:58 AM ♡ mood: sleepy
listening to: taake - myr
wanted to update my diary a bit before FINALLY going to bed (i say that as if i don't choose to go to bed at the most ridiculous hours). i woke up today at like 5 or 6pm and spent the whole evening drawing the pixels i put in the adopts page... oh how wonderful life is when you decide to take your college classes online...
after i drew those pixels i ended up rewatching hetalia. "you're watching hetalia in 2024?!?", you may be wondering. and yes, i am in fact watching hetalia in 2024. i wasn't originally planning to do that, but i saw someone on youtube post a whole ass google drive link to all the hetalia episodes subbed and dubbed (including paint it white). which led to a whole night of me binge watching hetalia (and by binge watching i mean i'm almost done with season 1). i'll probably watch some more when i wake up later today at like 5pm or something.
in retrospect something i find really funny about this anime is the fucking ending song. like an episode could have a sad ending (i.e. in episode 21 where holy rome promises to visit chibi italy after the war and then never comes back) and then it cuts to fucking marukaite chikyuu 😭 like that's absolutely fucking diabolical.
that's enough yapping for now, i need to go to sleep! like NOW! byeeee!!!!!
october 1 ♡ time: 7:25 AM ♡ mood: okay
listening to: lyhjat - bloodhunger (full album)
IT'S FINALLY OCTOBER!!! and with a new month comes a new college class! the class in question being... drumroll please... PUBLIC SPEAKING! *booing ensues*
yeah, and even worse, i have like two graded speeches due by the end of this month *booing gets louder*
honestly i don't know why they HAD to give me this class this month. i would much rather do a monster final project involving a presentation and an essay than a recorded speech. i was SUPER looking to halloween this month, and uni had to ruin it all by giving me fucking PUBLIC SPEAKING as this month's class. if there even is a god out there, then the idea that he (or she, idk god could be a woman for all i know) is a merciful and compassionate god is a highly naive idea, at best.
anyways, enough raging!!! i was especially looking forward to halloween this year because i wanted to try and do a little bit of halloween baking this year. i baked brownies for my little cousin's 11th birthday this year and everyone LOVED THEM, so i'm feeling extra confident! my next problem is deciding on what to make. i have so many ideas! i was thinking of making cookie cake / pie / whatever it's called, because i LOVE cookie cake. but i was also thinking of making pumpkin bread, specifically with chocolate chips. maybe i should do both??? i dunno, stay tuned to find out!